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18th December, 2007

Kolkata

Today we might be far away from each other but still my heart beats for you. It’s you and only you who ever let me think about myself. Whenever I saw you I thought what I should do so that you can think of me. I know the time has gone. Now you belong to someone else but my heart doesn’t want to accept the truth. Today is the day when everyone is celebrating but I am in tears. I am not able to celebrate it.

Do you remember all those days I spent with you? May be not as a perfect lover but I tried to be there as your friend.

Do you remember all those afternoons we spent together while talking? Those were very special moments for me. I tried to get your complete attention. It was only you and me. Walking alone on the way. The scorching sun or flooding rain was just a reason to come under the single umbrella. Those days I left my umbrella at home. I believed that you would be there to bring the umbrella.

Do you remember all those college festivals? Those were wonderful moments. You were the most gorgeous girl. You looked at me avoiding hundred eyes those were waiting for your one single signal. I felt so lucky and thankful to GOD. I was almost at cloud nine when you came and hold my hand in front of every one.

Do you remember all those puja celebrations? The city of Joy looked more joyful when you were with me. We went to different places sometimes alone sometimes with other friends but all along enjoyed your company, all those giggling.  I never realized what all mighty wanted but everything got clear after you came to my life.

I never knew how much I loved you but I knew that it would be tough without you. Today after the college life when you have decided to live your life with someone else I got nothing to live with. I feel like I lost my life. Life is funny. Isn’t it? Now I have good job and prospect for my life but I lost the hope of my life. Tell me what should I do?? Should I go and attain your marriage or should I just forget the fact? I know I was your best friend in college days and we also had a very good chemistry but right now how I can be your friend? I loved you and I told you also. I wanted to live the same day in my life having you beside me.

I can’t cry because that will bring bad luck in your new life. I can’t celebrate the day because that will lead me to suffocation of death. I thought of killing myself but I am not so brave to leave my parents. But I am going. I am going far away from you. When you’ll get the letter I’ll be thousand miles away from you. I have decided to delete all my email address. Let me live a life where I have your memories. I love you, love you like a mad dog. Leaving you to your beloved husband who never can take my place. But still wishing you for your new life. Hope we will meet some where…………….

Just one request… Don’t forget me………..

Your Friend…..

Sudhir                   “

It was the next day morning of her marriage when the letter came to Sujata’s hand. The new morning in her new life but today somehow she’s not happy. She can’t hold her tears and can’t cry too. Her friend gave the letter to her and also gave the news that Sudhir is no more. Last night while going to the airport he met with an accident and died at the hospital. Sujata doesn’t know whether it is an accident or suicide. Sudhir was way beyond her understanding all along and he’ll be..

Life has given her a lot of experiences and today she is lost

Rules

Posted on: February 5, 2010

People make rules for their own benefits. Those rules are not supposed to be followed. Let me take you through those rules. Right now I have a few one. Hopefully I can get some more rules.

Our first rule created by Mr X . A 28 years old an Indian guy who claims to be bisexual. His rule was about commitment. He told that he was sexually committed to someone. In India no one must have ever heard that there can be a sexual commitment. According to him, he was not in love but in making love, no commitments just for sexual heal. When he was asked whether he would accept the offer from someone else to sleep with him, his reply was also different. He said no for any unknown person but for someone known to him, he might say yes. He also mentioned the feeling factor. So one of his friend suppose Y who was familiar to X asked for sex. The reply from X was,”I am not mentally ready for that now. If my animal brain kicks me and u badly needs me. So answer is completely situation dependent”.  A big question mark appeared when X used the word animal part of his brain. As a justification of his animal part of brain X explained that he needed it without any human values just like an animal.

Here X was completely confused and also mixed his ‘feelings’ and ‘kick of the animal part of his brain’. He ended up saying that everything depends on his mood, his decision and the consequence

So here goes the rule (not suppose to follow) number 1 : You can also be sexually committed without the mental commitment.

Our next rule is for Limitation. Mr A and Mr. K are friends as well as gay. They know each other for very short span of time. Mr. A is committed in relationship with someone else and K agreed with that. At the beginning K told that he will remember his limitations and they will remain as normal friends. Here the rule comes.

Once both met  at some common place and K gave a ride to A back to his home. On the way it was cold and the road was empty.  A could have hugged K from back but he didn’t he just crossed his arms around his chest to warm himself up. After reaching to A’s house K just left for the day.

After a few days during conversation K told to A that he should have hugged K from back to keep them warm. The conversation started and went on. In between K expressed that he believes in open relationship. K told to A that he would like to hug and Kiss A while staying within the limit. So what exactly K thought the limit was. He wanted to hug and kiss his friend some where alone. Wasn’t that crossing the limitation? K might have thought of giving a try by kissing his friend or may be he wanted something else by just increasing the limit.

In mathematics limit is without any limitation and we have taken that literally. We can change or increase our limit when we want

So here goes the rule(not suppose to follow) number 2: To do what you are not supposed to, you can always increase your limit.

I was listening these musics from 7G rainbow colony , a tamil movie.  I searched almost all over the web but i didn’t get the  English meaning of these songs. At last a very special person of mine translated the lyrics. Now I am going to post the English meaning of the song for  them who love music.

K K and Shreya Goshal sang these songs. The male version seems like asking questions to the female part where as the female version is answering the questions and she blamed to her fate. Never heard such a beautiful music. Hats Off to the lyrics and the music directer.

Here goes the meaning…

Male Version

ninaithu ninaithu paarthaenI thought over & over again

nerungi vilagi nadandhaenI kept walking close & far

unnaal dhaanae naanae vaazhgiRaen ohI am living because of you alone

unnil indru ennai paarkkiRaenNow I see myself in you

eduthu padithu mudikkum munnae

eriyum kadidham edhaRku peNNae? }

-Why do I need a letter that burns before I take it and read my girl?

unnaal dhaanae naanae vaazhgiRaen ohI am living because of you alone

unnil indru ennai paarkkiRaenNow I see myself in you

-Music-

amarndhu paesum marangaLin nizhalum

unnai kaetkum eppadi solvaen }- The shadows of the tree where we sit & talk will ask for you, what would I say?

udhirndhu poana malarin mounama?Will it be the silence of a withered flower?

thoodhu paesum kolusin oliyai

aRaigaL kaetkum eppadi solvaen? }- The rooms will ask for the messenger that was the sound of your anklets, what would I say?

udaindhu poana vaLaiyal paesuma?Will a broken bangle speak?

uLLangaiyial veppam saerkkum

viralgaL indru engae? }- Where are the fingers that warm up the palm of my hand?

thoaLil saayndhu kadhaigaL paesa }

mugamum illai ingae }- There’s no face to talk to here while I rest my head on shoulders…

mudhal kanavu mudinthidum munnamae}

thookkam kalaindhadhey  }- Before the first dream ended, my sleep was gone…


(ninaithu ninaithu…)

paesi poana vaarthaigaL ellaamThe words that you spoke & went

kaalam dhoaRum kaadhinil kaetkum - will keep ringing in my ears for all times

saambal kaRaiyum vaarthai kaRaiyuma? - Ashes may dissolve, would words dissolve?

paarthu poana paarvaigaL ellaamThe looks that you gave and went

pagalum iravum kaeLvigaL kaetkumkeeps questioning me day & night

uyirum poagum uruvam poaguma? - Life may leave, does the shape leave?

thodarndhu vandha nizhalgaL ingae- Here’s the shadows that followed me

theeyil saerndhu poagum - joining with fire

thiruttu poana thadayam paarthum }

nambavillai naanum  } - Even after inspecting the evidence of theft, I refused to believe

oru tharuNam edhirinil thoandruvaay

endrae vaazhgiRaen naanum….  }- I am living in the belief that you will appear momentarily in front of me.


Female Version


ninaithu ninaithu paarthal - If you keep thinking repeatedly

nerungi arugil varuven - I will come closer

unnaal dhaanae naanae vaazhgiRaen oh - I am living because of you alone

unnil indru ennai paarkkiRaen - Now I see myself in you

eduthu padithu mudikkum munnae

eriyum kadidham unakku thanthaen }- I’ll give you a letter that’ll burn before you take it and read it

unnaal dhaanae naanae vaazhgiRaen oh - I am living because of you alone

unnil indru ennai paarkkiRaen - Now I see myself in you


-music-

amarndhu paesum marangaLin nizhalum

Namadhu kadhayai kaalamum sollum    }- The shadows of the trees under which we sit and talk will tell our story for ages.

Udhirnthu pona malarin vaasamo? – Is it the fragrance of a withered flower?

Thoothu pesum kolusin oliyai

Araigal muluthum aandugal sollum }- The rooms will talk about the messenger that was my anklet’s sounds for years to come

Udainthu pona valayalin banthamo? – Is it the bond of a broken bangle?

Ullangayil veppan saerkum viralgal unthan kayil - Yours are the fingers that bring warmth to my palm

Tholil sainthu kadhaigal paesa namathu vidhiyil illai - our fates does not allow us to speak leaning on each other’s shoulder

Muthal kanavu pothumey kadhala – enough of your first dream love

Kangal thiranthidu… - open your eyes


(ninaithu ninaithu…)

paesi poana vaarthaigaL ellaam

Unathu paechil kalanthey irukkum }- All those spoken words will remain in your speech

Ulagam aliyum uruvam aliyuma? - the world might get destroyed but the shape doesn’t

paarthu poana paarvaigaL ellaam

pagalum iravum unnudan irukkum  }- All the looks that I left behind will remain with you through day and night

Unathu vizhigal ennai marakkuma? – Will your eyes forget me?

thodarndhu vandha nizhalin bimbam }

Vandhu vandhu pogum…    }- The shadow that kept following keeps coming & going

thiruttu poana thadayam irunthum }

Thirumbi varuven naanum   }- Even if the evidence suggest theft, I will return

Oru tharunam ennada kadhala

Unnul vaalgiraen   }- What’s there in a moment while I live within you my love.

Some love stories never end. People may get separated but some where down the heart love may remain the same way.

But all the love stories are not same. Some where people just forced themselves to believe that the story is over.

The same thing happened for them also. It was some where between April. Akash and Prasanth were fine. Both trying together to shift together. But One day some thing happened. Prasanth told to Akash that he would not be able to stay with Prasanth after the adoption. Akash was stuck. He asked the reason. Prasanth told the reason is not other than the Indian society. Akash tried to have a discussion but Prasanth was not eager to play with a kid’s life.

For Prasanth kid was the first choice and for Akash Prasanth became the first choice. Akash never wanted to loose Prasanth. Prasanth was also helpless. Adopting a kid was his aim in life and being a man of substance he never wanted to change the aim of his own life.

After three days discussions Akash agreed with Prasanth. Akash agreed to stay in the same building but may be not in the same apartment. But it was too late for him. Prasanth saw a crack some where in between the relation.

The same day night Prasanth told Akash that things were not working and he wanted to stop that right now.

It was a stormy night for Akash. The next day morning came with emptiness. Some thing was not there. Some thing was missing. That some thing was none other than Prasanth. His fortune gave him a new on the same day.  Akash won his professional battle and lost his love.

Prasanth even stopped talking to Akash. Akash was into pieces.  They thanked GOD for creating some relationship like ‘friendship’. Prasanth told one of Akash’s friend about all of this. The friend was helpless too. Took no other sides. Just came and stood beside Akash.

Akash became lonely again. Such is life. To make other’s happy they both let their happiness go. They had to for the society for the kid for each other.

The story ended in the month of April. They never saw each other. They called each other but that was kind of formality. Slowly the formality also went off some where.

Till today they remember each other by some songs, some special moments spent with each other. They are none for each other now.

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Akash was in his home town celebrating the New Year with his parents and Prasanth was there in his city with his friends. On that New Year they again promised themselves to stay together.

The year was 2008 and let me call this part as” Lagging Behind”

After the New Year celebration both of them came back to their own cities. They were busy in their work.

Prasanth had a dream to adopt a kid. Akash was quite happy about it. Things were going on it’s own way. Akash was getting busy in his work and Prasanth was also getting the same amount of busy at his work.

It was mid Feb when Prasanth went for another counseling to adopt the kid. But unfortunately according to the Indian rule Prasanth had to be 30Years to adopt a kid. So Prasanth was again disappointed. As I told it was Prasanth’s dream to adopt the kid. Akash was supportive but some where in his mind he was afraid to loose Prasanth. Akash wanted the kid also but he was thinking about some more time. Yeah, Prasanth said that next year that means in 2009 Prasanth would get the chance to adopt the kid.

Akash was happy all over but a bit scared. Akash wanted to stay with Prasanth at any cost. There’s nothing more than this Akash ever wanted. Another big incident happened in Prasanth’s life. All of a sudden he got depressed with all the adoption matter. More over one of his close friend was also leaving India. So all the things together made him sadder. And he had to visit the same psychiatrist again. This time for counseling of depression. Prasanth had to be under tough medication for some two or three weeks. All along Akash wanted to visit Prasanth , but Prasanth was rejected Akash’s plan to visit him. At last being such kind of desperate Akash went to Prasanth’s home. After three months Akash met Prasanth when Prasanth was in that condition. Akash decided not be weak in front of Prasanth. He hid all his tears. Prasanth didn’t see any tears in Akash’s eyes. But Akash wanted Prasanth to see his heart where he was crying a lot…Poor Prasanth, he also thought of hugging Akash and also wanted to share his own thought But Prasanth also didn’t speak his mind. So many words were there unspoken. Some where they were lagging behind

It was the month of March and that’s the last time Akash saw Prasanth. Till today Akash haven’t seen him again.

Let me call this part as,” The Distance”

Have you ever heard anyone saying that,” Distance relationship never works!!!” I heard that well, guess what at this part Akash and Prasanth felt the distance but that doesn’t mean that they left the relation there for the distance. Rather they tried to over come the distance. Yes, At this point of time I can feel that both of them really tried to over ocome the distance. May be they did it…

As I told you that this month of Dec was there only for distance. Akash was in his city busy with his work but again missing Prasanth in his heart and Prasanth. Prasanth was also too busy at his work. Both were trying to change the job. Prasanth was searching the job in his Own City where as Akash was searching the job in Prasanth’s city.

It was almost a few weeks that both had seen each other. But as I told you Prasanth was also quite strong about his word. He told Akash,” As long as I am not getting any job I’ll try not to meet you. I know it’ll be tough for me. And I even know that I will go to your city to see you. So at least for seeing you I have to get a job as soon as possible”.

Akash was partly happy about his boyfriend and party scared about the distance. As I told you He was also trying for job in Prasanth’s city. So Akash also tried to get some interview. But unfortunately he was not getting any interview and Prasanth was not getting a proper chance to change his job.

Both were missing each other. But they tried to over come the distance. Both of them had a teddy bear. Those two were also a pair and they named it according to their loves name. Akash used to call his bear as “Prasanth”. More over they thanked GOD for all those.”G talk”, mobile system and all those stuffs… They tried to make their mind.

But at last Akash was unable to hold his emotion. He insisted to visit Prasanth’s place at the end of the dec. As ‘Akash’ insisted so Prasanth didn’t say anything him about it. After almost a whole month Akash and Prasanth were together. It was a great pleasure for both of them.

Akash was there for a week end and at the end of the week end Prasanth was also suppose to visit his home town which was near by Akash’s city. So Prasanth and Akash started together. Though it was not the first time but it was nice journey. Prasanth told some very practical stuff to ‘Akash’. A very rude practical stuff…

,”Hy. How serious you are about your job? See I know that may be you are serious about your job but that seriousness is not enough. What will happen if in future this Prasanth is not there in your life then on whom you’ll depend. Aakash be on yourself. Don’t you know about your responsibilities! I know you love me and even you also know that am mad about you. But still be on yourself sweetheart so that in future you never had to regret” Aakash heard all but never replied back. He started to think about it. Yes, some where Prasanth was correct. May be Akash was giving more attention to Prasanth more than his job. Aakash decided that he had to follow Prasanth’s word.

Akash was happy for his boy friend who was such a wise and caring. It was the last journey that Akash made with Prasanth after this journey they saw each other only once after 2 months back. But they never knew what is going to happen, what is there in their luck?

Akash and Prasanth both were so hopeful about the positive turn in life… Akash too continued his search about his fiancé’s ring…

‘Akash’ also planned to visit his home and at the end of dec Akash left for his home. He planned to celebrate his Christmas and New Year eve at his home with his parents…


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