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Whenever I have asked someone to describe what love is, everybody gave very beautiful descriptions! They said , “love is pure”, “ love is divine”!

I showed them this painting of mine and asked what did they see?  They said a boy and a girl in love! I replied them they are lovers.

I have not labeled them.  It really doesn’t matter if they are male, female or transgender. They are in love and they look very peaceful. I am not boosting just because it is my painting. Can you tell me, “will the definition of love be different if it is between two guys or two girls!”

The way you love  your partner they also love the same way! Then why is this discrimination! You fight for your love, You run away with your partner if your family doesn’t support! So, you know the values of love. Then why do you hate! Where they would ran away if you don’t support love! You are everywhere and you have to stand by them for their love!!

Painting 1


It’s a realization when we cross a long distance and get a glimpse of our good old days. Heart’s desire is to go back to those days surrounded by the best friends.


A group of college students became close friends. Started hanging out together. It was one of a kind. Everyone else started to think what a funny group  always engaged in themselves. The group also opened arms for another student to be part of them. Got the privilege to be the shoulder to lean on. It was a moment when felt love. Never meant to make it mine. Wanted her to be happy, very happy actually. Never expressed the feeling. Came to know what love is once it was gone.  It’s a realization what love is or what love can be.


How to know if bunking class is good unless classes are bunked! It’s a realization when we miss those long hours of discussion, lunch sharing and the shadows of mango tree next to the big pond. The sounds of electric guitar in college music fest seemed unbearable then but now heart wants to stand in the front row but where is the college fest. Realization of small fights came after the laugh. Laughing together for silly reasons, running across the field like a child was really fun. It’s a realization that childhood can be awesome with awesome friends.


All the friends are in different places. A get together takes years to plan. It’s a realization that life goes on no matter what. Yes heart always wants to be surrounded by those best friends. No matter what this won’t fed in memory. Will always remember and love.

We all know what love is. Moreover thanks to movies and all the authors who described love. I also have seen love but never realized the outcome of the chemical reaction between love and religion. Religious believe is a week point of human being and Love is also a very strong emotion. If any one can work on them then it might become a very strong bond. It’s really happening in Akash’s life.

Akash being a son of a conservative Hindu Brahmin family learnt to accept others. This acceptance was not new but recently the same acceptance has channeled his life in a fresh stream. Back in 2009, during lent he met David who is from Christian family. They both liked each other and thought of taking things seriously. It was Easter day when they proposed each other. For them lent and Easter became a real occasion to celebrate life, hope and blessings. .

They have also accepted each others religion. When David was leaving India for his higher study Akash gave a sacred coin to him which his mom got from Mathura (a very sacred place for Hindu). David also gave his cross to Akash. Their prayer was heard.

Standing in the month of Feb they are planning to celebrate their one year Anniversary. Akash never thought of celebrating Easter like any other Christian.  David has also visited temples with him. This Year David is following his Lents routine and Akash is wearing the cross which David used to wear.

It’s wonderful to see people crossing their religious limit and falling in love. It’s only love which can dissolve all the fake barriers. They haven’t converted themselves. Staying in their own religions they respect each other. Right now they belong to the greatest religion, Humanity which taught them to love.

They don’t know what time has written for them but right now they are hopeful about their future. They have started planning for it. Without crossing their own religions they have accepted each other only because of love. They are happily in love. I guess this is the outcome of the chemical reaction.

Isn’t It?

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18th December, 2007


Today we might be far away from each other but still my heart beats for you. It’s you and only you who ever let me think about myself. Whenever I saw you I thought what I should do so that you can think of me. I know the time has gone. Now you belong to someone else but my heart doesn’t want to accept the truth. Today is the day when everyone is celebrating but I am in tears. I am not able to celebrate it.

Do you remember all those days I spent with you? May be not as a perfect lover but I tried to be there as your friend.

Do you remember all those afternoons we spent together while talking? Those were very special moments for me. I tried to get your complete attention. It was only you and me. Walking alone on the way. The scorching sun or flooding rain was just a reason to come under the single umbrella. Those days I left my umbrella at home. I believed that you would be there to bring the umbrella.

Do you remember all those college festivals? Those were wonderful moments. You were the most gorgeous girl. You looked at me avoiding hundred eyes those were waiting for your one single signal. I felt so lucky and thankful to GOD. I was almost at cloud nine when you came and hold my hand in front of every one.

Do you remember all those puja celebrations? The city of Joy looked more joyful when you were with me. We went to different places sometimes alone sometimes with other friends but all along enjoyed your company, all those giggling.  I never realized what all mighty wanted but everything got clear after you came to my life.

I never knew how much I loved you but I knew that it would be tough without you. Today after the college life when you have decided to live your life with someone else I got nothing to live with. I feel like I lost my life. Life is funny. Isn’t it? Now I have good job and prospect for my life but I lost the hope of my life. Tell me what should I do?? Should I go and attain your marriage or should I just forget the fact? I know I was your best friend in college days and we also had a very good chemistry but right now how I can be your friend? I loved you and I told you also. I wanted to live the same day in my life having you beside me.

I can’t cry because that will bring bad luck in your new life. I can’t celebrate the day because that will lead me to suffocation of death. I thought of killing myself but I am not so brave to leave my parents. But I am going. I am going far away from you. When you’ll get the letter I’ll be thousand miles away from you. I have decided to delete all my email address. Let me live a life where I have your memories. I love you, love you like a mad dog. Leaving you to your beloved husband who never can take my place. But still wishing you for your new life. Hope we will meet some where…………….

Just one request… Don’t forget me………..

Your Friend…..

Sudhir                   “

It was the next day morning of her marriage when the letter came to Sujata’s hand. The new morning in her new life but today somehow she’s not happy. She can’t hold her tears and can’t cry too. Her friend gave the letter to her and also gave the news that Sudhir is no more. Last night while going to the airport he met with an accident and died at the hospital. Sujata doesn’t know whether it is an accident or suicide. Sudhir was way beyond her understanding all along and he’ll be..

Life has given her a lot of experiences and today she is lost


Posted on: August 29, 2008

Subho, yes… this is a bengali name and the name of my friend. My friend subho, today i meet  him first time at the  central station and today he told me not to come back in his life.  No, No don’t blame him. let me tell you the story first. It might not be very interesting story  but I felt this. So , ready to listen my story………  Good..Here it is…

Subhankor, it is his  good name. i  mean  we  his friends call him as Subho. A very sweet, caring guy. A perfect bengali guy who loves to eat a lot. He has finished his graduation and going for his masters. I know him through a web site. I saw him long back had a small crush for him. Liked to talk to him but again never got the courage. One day got the courage and pinged him say “Hi….”. I got the reply. I understood one nice guy is there behind the glass. Yes he has a glass. So we started talking.  But all of sudden subho deleted his profile from the web site. Though we started to talk but we never exchanged the number. And i never knew how to find him.. Fortunately one day he came back in that same web site and him pinged me first saying,”Hai…  there remember me. Am Subho…”. I was happy to get him back. This  time we started to talk to him. Trust me i was happy. Felt that some one special is there for me some where. I felt good.

One subho told me that he is coming to chennai. I was happy to know that. then he explained me that actually he is coming from kolkata and going to manipal for his masters. He is going to change his train fromchennai central. I told him fine i will meet  you there at chennai central station. he agreed with that. We don’t know  what happened after that. Subho started to come near by . At last he touched my heart. I was scared. Never wanted to loose him. it is not first time for me. few people came in my life and they have already left me. So the first thing i asked him is time. I asked some time from my subho. I told him,”It’s good  to hear that subho u love  me. Even i also like you. But give me some time. I have only seen your  photo.let me see the 3-D subho. Then i will tell you every thing. But  subho, I like you.. really  like you…”

After that we were keep on talking on phone. He has already proposed me. I didn’t reply him back. But in my mind i accepted the proposal. I introduced him to my college mates. I told about him to my friends. Some one said he must be crazy, it must be infatuation. I don’t know what was that. I know that he loved me. He loved me with his heart. He suppose to be at chennai central on 28th August, 2008. The day was nearing. I was excited. I told him that i will leave my office early so that i can spend time with him. He sounded happy. but some times we used to fight. We used to fight on some silly things. But love was present all along.

But things changed. It was one Saturday. I called him and he told,”Hey, I don’t think am ready for this. I need some time.” I was shocked .. what he is talking about. now when i am prepared for him.. why he  need time…  I replied him,”Ok, fine take your own time.”

That day we didn’t talk much . Next i called him. I never expected this from him. He told,”Hey, i am in love with someone else. I thought it will work out. But it is not.” I asked him about the time? He told that he had already decided. it can’t be changed. So he wanted to go away from my life. I asked only once why ? His answer sounds floating.  I didn’t ask any more thing.

Today, On 28th August 2008, for the first time i met him at. chennai central. He was waiting at plat form number 8.I went there from office. He was the same rather i felt that i was behaving very sweet with him. Again he took the topic. I told him not to say anything.  He had to get  some other train. So before that we had our dinner together. After that we went  for the next train.

He got in the train. The train was suppose to leave at 8.10PM from plat form number 1. So we reached there in time. it was only 7.42 pm. He was carrying three bags. We got in the train , put all the bags properly.  Now it was time for me  to go away. I got down from the train.

I was unable to control myself. Asked him, “Subho, do you love some one else??” Subho,”Yes….i am in love with some one else”. After a pause i told him,”All the best….” I didn’t ask the name. Don’t wanna  ask others name. He replied. He also told that he even don’t know whether the other person loves him or not. But he is in love with that person. I had no other words to tell him. I was thinking about myself. I was so excited about him. I was waiting for this day. but never expected to get the day like this way. I was  thinking all the things. All the past present, and future.

He started to say some thing,”Hey,  i understand your situation. But there’s a small request for you. Please, don’t think bad for me and to soul mate. We can still be friends.”. This time he hurt me. How come i think bad for some one whom i like. I will be happy if he s happy. He asked to go back to office. I told don’t worry. Then he all got up in the train.I was standing at the same place. I was standing there alone and was seeing him through the window. Then after five minutes we came down. “Why you are standing here still. you must be getting late for office!” He told with some kind of disgusting feelings. I replied,”That’s my office don’t worry i will manage”. “No, if you can’t hurt me while standing here. Please, go from here. Please……” He told with putting both of the hands together. I started from the office. He took my hand in his hand and he also started to walk a bit. Then i told,”Take care of your self”..while hugging him….  And  left  the station.

My Subho…left me….. we got separated. he went away from me……Some where for better life for better soul mate……………………….

But you didn’t give me time….  I liked  you… You didn’t understand…………..  Be happy my dear SUBHO..