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18th December, 2007

Kolkata

Today we might be far away from each other but still my heart beats for you. It’s you and only you who ever let me think about myself. Whenever I saw you I thought what I should do so that you can think of me. I know the time has gone. Now you belong to someone else but my heart doesn’t want to accept the truth. Today is the day when everyone is celebrating but I am in tears. I am not able to celebrate it.

Do you remember all those days I spent with you? May be not as a perfect lover but I tried to be there as your friend.

Do you remember all those afternoons we spent together while talking? Those were very special moments for me. I tried to get your complete attention. It was only you and me. Walking alone on the way. The scorching sun or flooding rain was just a reason to come under the single umbrella. Those days I left my umbrella at home. I believed that you would be there to bring the umbrella.

Do you remember all those college festivals? Those were wonderful moments. You were the most gorgeous girl. You looked at me avoiding hundred eyes those were waiting for your one single signal. I felt so lucky and thankful to GOD. I was almost at cloud nine when you came and hold my hand in front of every one.

Do you remember all those puja celebrations? The city of Joy looked more joyful when you were with me. We went to different places sometimes alone sometimes with other friends but all along enjoyed your company, all those giggling.  I never realized what all mighty wanted but everything got clear after you came to my life.

I never knew how much I loved you but I knew that it would be tough without you. Today after the college life when you have decided to live your life with someone else I got nothing to live with. I feel like I lost my life. Life is funny. Isn’t it? Now I have good job and prospect for my life but I lost the hope of my life. Tell me what should I do?? Should I go and attain your marriage or should I just forget the fact? I know I was your best friend in college days and we also had a very good chemistry but right now how I can be your friend? I loved you and I told you also. I wanted to live the same day in my life having you beside me.

I can’t cry because that will bring bad luck in your new life. I can’t celebrate the day because that will lead me to suffocation of death. I thought of killing myself but I am not so brave to leave my parents. But I am going. I am going far away from you. When you’ll get the letter I’ll be thousand miles away from you. I have decided to delete all my email address. Let me live a life where I have your memories. I love you, love you like a mad dog. Leaving you to your beloved husband who never can take my place. But still wishing you for your new life. Hope we will meet some where…………….

Just one request… Don’t forget me………..

Your Friend…..

Sudhir                   “

It was the next day morning of her marriage when the letter came to Sujata’s hand. The new morning in her new life but today somehow she’s not happy. She can’t hold her tears and can’t cry too. Her friend gave the letter to her and also gave the news that Sudhir is no more. Last night while going to the airport he met with an accident and died at the hospital. Sujata doesn’t know whether it is an accident or suicide. Sudhir was way beyond her understanding all along and he’ll be..

Life has given her a lot of experiences and today she is lost

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Who doesn’t wanna see dreams but how it would be if you dream about your own death!!!

It was a sunny day. Everything was so beautiful around me. I got in my car and asked my driver for somewhere. He was about to start the car but before that three small kids get into the car. I was about to open the door but they didn’t wait. They almost jumped into the car from the window. I knew them, they were all dear one. We all took the back seat. Every one was giggling. I asked them to keep quite cos my driver was looking back frequently. So we started a nice journey. We were singing songs

All of sudden my driver told me some thing. We were shouting so much that I didn’t get him clearly. I asked him to repeat. He turned his head and told me some thing. But before he say thing I saw in front of our car a track was standing and we were almost at 100KMhour. I lost my words. But some how my driver understood what exactly it was. When he looked in front we were a few yards away from the track. I understood nothing can be done. I closed my eyes holding my kids hands.

The very next moment when I opened my eyes I saw that we have crossed that track with out any pain or any scratch on us. So shocked we were. My driver looked at my face. He had no expression on his face. I looked back; saw the big track was standing there without moving an Inch.

I asked my driver to go back and check what exactly happened. He didn’t move at all but I forced him to go back and check the track. Before he start the car People came out from the near by places. All of them were shocked for some thing. Kids were holding my hand tight. I came out of the car and walked back to track to see what happened. Let the kids stay in the car. I was shocked when I saw one car is crashed with the track. Tried to recognize the car. I saw nothing other than the number plate.

An Ambulance rushed to the place and started their work. So I was dead now. I knew. But then how was walking!! Came back to my car. All were looking at me.. I was about to say something…my throat was blocked… some uncertain feelings….

With pain in my throat I opened my eyes……… It was morning 5.30AM.

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